||[Feb. 9th, 2009|10:04 am]
|[||flavor of my jelly bean
The past 2 years have been a wild ride to say the least. For those who knew how crazy my dad and stepmom were, I finally told them to let me live my life, my way. So b/c I said that my whole family disowned me. TO make things worse, my grandfather died in the middle of it all and i had no family to go through it with. It was the first true and close loss that ive had in my young life. I have and still do struggle alot emotionally and fincially with everything that has happend but im only stronger for it. when my family disowned me they took everything. Car, phone, school, everything that they have ever provided for me. What has made this all so much easier though is the love of me wonderful bf. He a jazz musician and I live with him now and will be getting back into school soon. We also will be married soon with i am happy about. My "real" mother (who i havent seen in like 14 years) and my sister from texas (who i havent seen in 12 years) have come back into my life. They are both incredible women and extremly strong women. I can learn alot from them both. All in all, the only family that i have are my mom and sister and my Boyfriend. Its been wild and crazy with alot of trails but Im stronger for it. Mostly I am happy. Thats somethings ive never truly been. I learned alot of things, here are some of them.
1. people will only do to you what you let them.
2. The choices that you make today, you have to live with tomorrow.
3. Watching your own back doesnt always me hurting other poeple.
4. If you dont love yourself, you will never be able to truly love and be loved.
5. Happiness does NOT knock on your front door. You got to go and find it.
until next time,